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I am a female-identified, female-bodied Master. I began my public involvement in
the leather community in 2001 when I attended my first MAsT meeting. I was a
co-founder of Female Artists of Domination (FAD), a North Carolina based group
formed in the summer of 2002 to support Female Dominants and those that serve. I
was also the Director of MAsT:Triad, NC from 2004-2006. Currently, I attend
events in the local community where I belong to several organizations. I also
present to groups as invited. From an early age, I can recall being a dominant
person…or perhaps a more domineering person, depending on who you ask. Once, as
a young girl in Girl Scouts, we did a puppet show with barnyard characters. The
other girls insisted I be “Bossy the Cow”. My peers used to write “Bitch” in the
dust of my car in high school. These things hurt at the time, but now I see that
it hurt because I wanted outward approval. While I still desire outward approval
in a lot of ways, I am aware of it and so I can more accurately judge if it is
appropriate behavior. Yes, I can still be a bitch, but truly, I want those who
serve me to serve because they want to, not because I domineer them into doing
it. Being a Master is a spiritual calling for me. It is not merely something I
do; it is who I am, and is a part of my spirituality. This, of course, makes no
statement or judgment about where I am on this journey or how well I feel I do
it. I am as far along as I should be and do it as my skills allow. I am nowhere
near as far along as I want to be nor are my skills as developed as I wish.
These two statements will never change, but I certainly will. |